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5-25-99 - I didn't have time to create all the special graphics for this page so be happy it loads faster. I'll try to describe everything that has happened in the last few months. I went out with a great girl...Jacqueline, and she turned out to not be what I expected. She had a boyfriend 3 days after our breakup, which totally tore me apart. She even said she wanted to get back together the day after she broke up with me...until the whole entire school turned on her, and she thought that I turned them against her...which wasn't the case. The whole school was mad at her because she screwed up. She had no reason to break up with me. Now she's dating a jerk, and she trys to make me jelous by talking about him in front of me all the time. I wrote her a note telling her how I felt and she promised she would write me back, but still hasn't because her boyfriend told her not to. I guess she just wasn't mature enough for the relationship I wanted. Because I am a romantic and I'm looking for a strong, mature, long relationship. I still haven't found a girl to match the description. But there are about 10 girls I know of that like me right now, so I'm just testing out the waters of singlehood. Me and Jacqueline's relationship lasted only 2 months, and she broke up with me on our 2 month aniversary. I thought that was messed up, even 5 minutes before we broke up she was sitting on my lap, and holding my hand like she always did, nothing was different, it was actually a good day. She said she got tired of kissing me, and she didn't want a commitment, and she didn't like keeping secrets from her family, but now with Paul (her new boyfriend) she's doing the same things. There's commitment, and secrets from her family. If her family knew they would kill her. I just hope that Paul doesn't screw her up, because she's a virgin, and he's probably going to take that from her just for fun. I feel sorry for her. Anyway, changing the subject off of her. I did get my lisence, and bought a car ('95 toyota camry), but lately I've been screwing up. I rear-ended a guy (small tap), and I got kicked out of school. The guy cussed me out and threatened to sue, he won't though, I convinced him. There was no damage going .5 miles an hour. my mom was parked there when I hit the guy...a 1,000,000 to 1 chance of that. so she got pissed, now I'm on 2 week car restriction. And also I got kicked out of school, so I'll never see my friends again most likely. Oh well, on with the new. the next entries won't be so long.

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5-28-99 - well today i should be going to dixon lake with my school...my last day seeing my friends probably. I'm not going to see them for a long time. This girl Miriam likes me im going to see her today, but I dont really like her as much as she likes me. I get uncomfortable around her because people expect me to like her because all the other guys would die for a chance to go out with her. They think im crazy for not wanting her. Ive known her a long time, so i just dont see what they see. I like her a little bit, but it's wierd having the girl like me more than I like them. We'll see what happens at Dixont today. Oh and Paul came to school a couple days ago. And told Tabitha he was going to kick my ass. When I saw him, I couldn't stop laughing. His head is shaped like a footbal...he's half my size. His arms are like spaghetti. He's coming to Dixon today to so we'll see what